Double Knowledge
One of my many joys of being a pediatrician is that I am
involved in care and nurture of identical twins and triples. These children of
multiple pregnancies are becoming more common because of infertility
treatments. Advances in medical technologies has offered previously infertile
couples the joys of parenthood. My challenge after their discharge from
hospital and is brought to my clinic for review is to tell them apart. They are
identical in every way. Sometimes, the parents sheepishly confess to me that
they too have difficulty telling them apart! However, as they grow up, I slowly
discover that I am able to tell them apart even though they are still identical
in appearance. Initially it was the way they respond to others but gradually
other telltale signs appear that mark their individual distinct personalities. It
is a testimony to God’s creativity that each individual is unique with their
unique personality. After making us, he threw away the molds. Thus the psalmist
can echo that we are “fearfully and wonderfully” made (Psalm 139:14). Each
person’s personality is as distinctive as their fingerprints or retina
patterns. Though personalities are distinctive, they may be categorized into
certain categories as people are also may be categorized according to ethnic
origins, gender, or body shapes.
Carl Jung, a Swiss psychiatrist, published his book Psychological
Types in 1923. In his book, Jung developed his observations that
people are born with specific ‘preference’ which forms the foundation of his
personality theory. Our personality are our preference that affect the way we
perceive the world, receive information from the world around us, process the
information and from it develop our responses which is acted out in our actions
and behavior. This is what made each of us unique. We act on our level of
preferences on an unconscious level and these preferences are well developed
because it help us to live and cope with the complex world in which we live in
with minimal stress. We because uncomfortable when we are forced to act outside
our preferences.
Two people going into a building will notice different
things, two persons having a conversation may remember different things and two
persons listening to a sermon may respond in different ways. The principal
reason for this, according to Jung, is that our preferences are born with us.
Thus each of us have a distinct personality type. The procedure of determining
the type of personality someone has is termed personality profiling. This does
not mean we are robots and are not free to choose. We are free to choose but
are likely to choose in a certain way because of our inborn preferences.
Knowing our personality will help us to understand
ourselves. Knowing ourselves is part of the process of knowing God. Augustine
of Hippo, one of the greatest theologian of the early church prays in his book, Confessions: “Lord, let me know myself;
let me know you.” The Confessions may
one of the earliest spiritual autobiography available and is still relevant
today for its honesty and frankness. In his prayer, Augustine reveals his
understanding that we need to know ourselves in order that we can know God.
This is often referred to as the doctrine of double knowledge: knowing the lord
and knowing ourselves. This is the basis of spiritual growth and theology.
Reformer John Calvin uses this theme in The
Institutes of the Christian Religion. Both Augustine and Calvin and many
others realize that we need to know ourselves as a basis of knowing God.
Knowing ourselves means moving beyond the falseness of our false self to the
real self within. We are all born with our real self. However, as we grow
older, we tend to develop a false self to meet the expectations of others, and
to protect our real self. In time this become the self we show to the outside
world. Often the false self is very different from our real self.
Self-knowledge in the double knowledge doctrine involves discovering our real
self. C.S. Lewis illustrate this process by an allegory in his book, Till We Have Faces. He retold the
Ancient Greek myth of Cupid and Psyche from the perspective of Orual, the ugly half-sister
of beautiful Psyche. Orual was so ugly that she hid herself behind a veil all
the time. When Pysche was offered to the ‘God of the Mountain’ who was Cupid,
Orural caused her to be banished by convincing her to lift the God’s veil which
was forbidden. Later she came to repent her actions because of her jealousy and
ignorance. Orual said,"How can [the gods] meet us face to face till we have
faces?" Lewis argues that we have to speak with our own voices (not
other’s), live our own desires (not other’s) and face the world with our own
faces (not behind a mask). To do that we have to recognize our own voices and
desires and have the courage to be transparent. In other words, to know our own
unique personality which is one half of the double knowledge.
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